Monday, 21 October 2013


It’s been said tell me your friends and I’ll tell you who you are. I have come to the conclusion that this statement not only refers to your friends, but your boyfriends, colleagues, happy hour buddies, the discussion group you choose to have. The ‘what’s-app’ groups you join/create the church you decide to go to etc... There’s something about your choice that reflects a certain aspect of your personality.

This brings me to another kind of similar point. You know those friends that you were once really close to but now aren’t anymore? You don’t like what they have become, you can’t believe some of the things they do these days, and how they act, or the choices they’ve made, or for some reason or the other, they just aren’t on your list of priorities anymore? When you do get to meet, the conversation that used to go on forever is summed up in all of two minutes…yeah we all have those…

The truth is, we all change. Change is the only constant in this world. As we grow older, naturally, our tastes change, we pursue different careers, we get busier and so time for socializing with your besties is not in as much abundance as it used to be. And we find that we don’t quite like the courses that some of our friends lives have taken. But before you quickly judge your friend for whatever mistake she made or foul character she developed along the years, ask yourself why you were friends in the first place. If at one point in time you were both able to see things the same way, then maybe you aren’t as different as you think.

Tuesday, 1 October 2013


“Being successful is basically two steps.
1. Figure out what you want.
2.  Go after it with all you’ve got.
 I find that step one is always the harder one.”- Anonymous.

I’m a victim of this quote. One of those “can’t really describe it but I’ll know it when I see it” people. I get bored really quick, and if something comes too easy, then I almost always lose interest. A friend and I once joked about it, saying maybe we have some testosterone. Now it’s not too funny anymore, in fact it’s a bit scary and time is fast spent. It’s a Christian principle to finish what you started and fight as much as I can, I still can’t shake this part of who I am.

I’m going on a quest to find out if there are people out there that are like me, and if so, what have they done to solve this. Hopefully this journey will end with some answers/solutions. Because if not, then I just might end up a ‘lonely old woman with only her cats for company’.


PS; this post is going to sound a bit like a sermonJ.

At the beginning of this year when I decided to live for Christ, the plan was basically to do it for a year and then get back to being good old me. Turns out the joke was on me. Because, it also turns, out the old Kullein is dead and gone. Let me explain…

I wanted to do it not really for me, but for both of us, for both me and God. I thought, live right for a few months, touch a few lives, get them to salvation and then before you know it, the months will be long gone and then you can go back to who you were. Everyone’s happy. The truth is, it was more for my own good. God doesn’t really need me, somewhere in the Bible it says, and I’m paraphrasing, if God wanted, He could get the rocks to do His work for Him. Yes He will let me if I want to, but He would never make me. I also realized that it’s not all about me. It, all this, this whole mess called life, it is indeed all about Jesus. Nothing else.

I can never be the same again, even if I tried. The changes go beyond the physical, and they are continuous. I have always wanted to stand out and be great, and I thought it was only to prove a point to the world. It just hit me recently that if I do get to be great, it will be only and only to the glory of God. I mean think about it, strange things have been going on in my life since this year came by:
-        -  I am quite loving and forgiving. Back in the day, no sin went unpunished. If I couldn’t find a way to make you pay, I would always have you on my “be-ware of” list. Now all I do is forgive and pray for people that might do me wrong.
-         - I forgive myself quite easily too. Now this is huuuuuuggggeeee where I’m concerned because for some reason, growing up, there was a lot of pressure to be perfect and make no mistakes. Now, each mistake is a lesson and a stepping stone. What’s done is done; keep it moving.
-        -  What about the way I’m not very excited by the party life anymore…I refuse to believe it’s because we are growing old. Personally I intended to part till my bones couldn’t take it anymore… now you literally have to drag me to a party!
-          -And the way I’m always sneaking verses and bible stuff into all my posts and conversations. It’s what happens when you’re so in love with someone, you just can’t stop talking about them. My friends and I used to wonder about this girl that basically only used to post about God and Jesus and stuff, like doesn’t she have a life outside church!, but now, you should take a look at my twitter feed...

Truth is, this year has changed everything about me, and I didn’t know it was even taking place. It’s a positive change, a good change, the kind of change that everyone approves of, me inclusive, but it’s for God’s glory. I wish everyone could find what I have found, cos then you would see that life makes so much more sense.