Thursday, 25 October 2012


‘If I’m very still, I will hear one clear voice…’

Having trouble choosing between whatever choices have been placed before you? Making that decision has got you so stressed out that you can’t eat? Your skin is losing its color and for some reason or the other, you can’t seem to enjoy anything else? It’s such a hard decision because both sides have got their pros and cons and none outweighs the other? And your friends can’t help because they could never understand the situation well enough?

Stop kidding yourself. You already know what the right choice is, at least what’s right for you. Deep down you already know what you should pick because it fits you perfectly. You are trying so hard to ignore that voice that is calmly saying “this is the right choice”, constantly fighting yourself;  maybe because you are afraid of things going wrong, maybe because  you are hoping that someone else will help you make the decision so that if things do go wrong, you have someone to blame, maybe you think this other choice is better, more presentable and stable, and even though you wouldn't be so thrilled and happy about it, at least it’s a safe choice. Plus, everyone approves…

Shame on you. For being such a coward. For not daring to stand out instead of fit in. For not trusting that your subconscious only reveals what you yourself are really  thinking. For not believing in yourself.
Shame on you for giving up.

Wednesday, 10 October 2012


Be kind to one another, everyone has a story, some worse than yours.
That lady that tries to steal your parking spot every morning is so lonely back home and wishes she had someone to talk to.

And that security guard that checks you extra thoroughly even if you have been coming to the same building for two years and never even once had an issue is trying to forget that he left his sick son home with only two tablets left between him and death.

And that annoying b***h at work who for some reason or the other keeps talking  about you behind  your back with all your friends and keeps giving you dagger eyes cries in the bathroom during lunch break because she doesn’t understand why, even after giving him her all, her boyfriend still wants to call it quits.
And that boda guy that took more than he should have is crushing at a friend’s as he slowly collects money for rent. The landlord won’t even let him take his stuff out before he pays.

And the teller at the supermarket who is taking her time in spite of how late she clearly knows you are can’t seem to understand why her son was the one that had to go and got expelled from school. In fact, if she doesn’t do something about his sister’s grades, she is going to follow him soon enough.
And what about that child in your class that is mean to you for no reason, secretly wishing her parents would give her the time of day, just once.

And your best friend who keeps has been acting up all week can’t believe this week marks a year since her husband died.
And your manager who just said you will all have to start wearing uniform to work is battling cancer, and yesterday, he found out has diabetes too.

And your brother who keeps telling on you for the smallest of things and won’t let you be is wondering why you are so much better than he is, and why you seem to get away with almost all the bad things you do while he, who has been an ideal son, has never even once received any approval for his hard work.
And you, you walk around with an attitude and are quick to tell whoever off, in fact people are afraid to cross you in case you embarrass them terribly. You are known as the guy ‘that doesn’t give a f***’, when in fact all you want is to fit in so badly…

Yes, be kind to everyone, yourself inclusive.


Ever wondered what would have happened if you were not who you were?

They say if even just one factor of your life is changed, your whole future changes. So what if you were not who you were? Going back to the beginning, what if it wasn’t that sperm that had been the first to reach the ovum? Or what if your mother had never met your dad? And what if you had never gone to that kindergarten, or to that primary school?
Or what if instead of arriving on the first day of school and getting the seat next the girl that became your best friend for ten years, you had arrived on the third day and had to sit elsewhere? What if you were born in another country altogether? What if you were disabled? What if your parents had separated when you were nine and you had to move? What if you had taken English literature at the university instead of going to medical school? Or what if you had actually gone right instead of going left that day?


Would you still be you? Would you still talk the same, and dress the same, and think the same and have the same dreams and ambitions that you have now? Would you believe in what you believe in now? Would your character be the one that you had now? But most importantly, the most important people in your life right now, would they still hold their current respective positions??

Well folks, we will never know. But there is one thing I can assure you, some things are just meant to be .They are above any explanation and any logic. And do not be shocked if one way or another, your paths cross anyway and even in that parallel lifetime, you still end up with some of the best that you have in your life now.

Thursday, 4 October 2012

The big bang theory???

We all have that one life-defining moment that is supposed to make you who you are, determine what kind of person you will become and the kind of life you will lead. I have been waiting for that moment for a long time. And each time something happened and I thought the moment had finally come , I would later realize that it wasn’t the one, and the same thing would happen with the next one and the next, and the next.

It’s just now that I realize that the moment passed a long time ago for me, around twelve years ago to be precise. Sadly, it was not a positive moment I’m afraid, and it left me with my guard constantly up, and I never realized till recently that it was something I had to recover from. But here’s the thing, I realized that it was there. I realized that it was negative, and I realized that it had affected me.

But I’m healing. And working on myself daily, and sometimes I’m really impressed by how far I have come since the realization. Maybe its just growing up, you just become somehow more accepting of yourself and more realistic the more you mature, yes, it’s possible, but I believe it’s more than that. It’s the smaller moments that have come my way that continue to sand paper  away all the sharp corners that the bigger moment left behind. And I have learnt to find my joy in those smaller moments, be it laughing a little louder than I used to, crying over an ex that I’m not over, lunch with the fam, playing in the rain…I may never get my big moment ever again, but I know that it’s the smaller moments that have made me who I am today,  and they are the ones that will continue to shape me till the day that I die.