memoirs of a kangaroo in the sun.

                                                  tuesday 23 rd august 2011 THE MANY PATHS OF TEARS…. Scientifically: When emotion affects us, it stimulates the cranial nerve in the brain and this sends signals to the neurons. The presence of androids in the dendrites of neurons increases the electronic activity in the medulla oblongata which results in production of cryolin that in turn catalyses the production of excess saline which is then pumped out through the eyes as a brain response mechanism for homeostasis. Emotional tears differ from scientific lubricant tears in that they contain a higher percentage of adrenonorticotropic hormone and leucine enkephalin that is a natural pain killer.    The lumbic system, specifically the hypothalamus has a degree of control over the autonomic syste...

                              MY FAV FRIENDS(for now :) : fabulously fabulous  and human.totally  comfy wherever whenever.totally love you guys, wouldnt trade what we have for anything.xoxo.<3<3<3 my super sweet and tasty fav food right now. lots of carbs,i know,and def doesn't help with the cellulite either  but the way it melts right into my mouth,def not giving you up anytime soon my dear custard pudding.  picnicing!!!haaaaa!(long sigh) very relaxing,very relieving, completely and utterly refreshing.my fav activity,for the last few days.going to  have one next week with my sort-of boyfriend,and one of my fav friends and her boyfriend.fun <3<3 Paloma Faith!!!can not  really claim this as an original idea of mine,listened  to some of her songs in my sort-of boyfriend's car and pretended not to like them,truth is i  lo...

                                         Friday July 29, 2011 THE TRUE FACE OF CHANGE (PART TWO) Writing has of late become like therapy to me, when I write I feel better, so how could this be. It’s like being a baker and not being able to figure out what you want to bake one particular morning. Was it because I was missing my inspiration, my sunshine? Or was it because I have been so busy I don’t have time to write anything with weight? Or is it because I feel like am giving too much and not receiving as much and that leaves me feeling empty? There had to be a reason, I can’t just not have what to write…can I? Then I realized it is just nature taking its course. I have always been afraid of change, of surprises, the unknown, the future. I believe in consistency, when you start something you m...

Friday June 24, 2011   BOHEMIAN RHAPSODY… Went over to the airport today, waited for Charlie   to arrive, a feeling of anticipation in my gut, wondered if this is how you felt each time you came to pick her…did you embrace? Was there that awkward moment where you don’t know what to say to each other, or know how to act? Did you call her ‘love’ and look her deep in the eyes or did you quickly reach for her luggage and save it all for the ride back home?                Drove quietly along the highway, watched all the planes that were packed in the hangar, dreamed of being in one of them one day. Dreamed of going to a place far away, where I could start over…would I still have you? Did the two of you look at these same planes? Did you share your dreams and plans for the future along this same route? Did she point out one of those planes and say something that made you laugh sincerely? Made the awkwardness disappea...

                                      May 8 th 2011. WHAT ARE YOU SETTLING FOR??? A wise man once said that great things come to a man that knows what he wills and wills it with all his heart. And although I have forgotten who exactly this wise man was, his words have had such a great impact on my life that I try to apply them wherever I can in my life.             I have just made it through what could appropriately be termed the longest week of my life and when I decided to sit back and review why it had qualified for this prestigious position, I realized that it is because underneath it all, am still an insecure approval-seeking unconfident little girl. I have since given up on remembering the particular incident that scarred me so much that I n...

THE STUFF THAT DREAMS ARE MADE OF.   I remember a time when my best friend and I would talk about life in a way that you could only see in the movies. We dreamt about finding true love, winning the lottery and living happily ever after. When we shared our dreams, we never realized that things actually go wrong and dreams sometimes do not come true.         Now a few years later, I am forced to ask myself what exactly can be considered a dream. And even though this particular friend of mine is long gone, I still look back upon those days with hope and longing. Because, in spite of it all, what we did then was the true definition of dreaming. To be able to perceive something so out of reach that others would consider impossible is what I consider a true dream. To actually envision it coming true and being able to see in your mind the step by step details of how it will all unfold is the stuff that dreams are made of. To live your life sure it will...

DON’T LET ME COME HOME A STRANGER               Lately I have developed this uneasy feeling in my heart that life is passing me by. That there is something I am missing and I will not be able to hold onto all the precious memories that make people who they are. I have the uncontrollable urge to freeze time every five seconds so I can take it in every situation, every emotion and every single expression. I want to have the ability to document on some sort of recording device every second of the lives of the people in my life and I suddenly feel like one life time won’t be enough for me to achieve all that I would have wanted to.                                  I feel like there is so much I have forgotten, so many that I have forgotten and so many that have forgotten m...